~카 구 라 요 ~

many to dreams, but they’re just dreams

oh hey, they’re just for the future, and yet we don’t know what’s going to be

all dreams are wild, some just beyond realisation… how cruel that can be,

my mind became so mad just to think of it

how i live, where i live, whom i live with..  i can’t force the nature

this is my life, life is like that…

no, i don’t want to look back

that memories, are just like yesterday

i still can feel the pins and needles

nightmares are still haunted me

i just want to run away

but they keep chase me … what a devil

but hey, you can’t force the nature

because, life is like that

live to the present they say

but how can you say that when you leaving people behind

or, is it suppose to be an example?

no, it’s not good when others frownign

life is confusing.. is it to be like that?

the path that i’m walking…

i just don’t know

blindly i walk

and yet i can see everything

i want to do everything

but i can’t, many things forcing me to stay behind

or, is it me.. who don’t have the courage…

as i don’t want to feel the same way before

but everything just feel so wrong…

but life is like that

Have you ever watched kids
On a merry-go-round?
Or listened to the rain
Slapping on the ground?
Ever followed a butterfly’s erratic flight?
Or gazed at the sun into the fading night?
You’d better slow down.
Don’t dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won’t last. 

Do you run through each day
On the fly?
When you ask “How are you?”
Do you hear the reply?
When the day is done
Do you lie in your bed
With the next hundred chores
Running through your head?
You’d better slow down
Don’t dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won’t last. 

Ever told your child,
We’ll do it tomorrow?
And in your haste,
Not see his sorrow?
Ever lost touch,
Let a good friendship die
Cause you never had time
To call and say “Hi”?
You’d better slow down.
Don’t dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won’t last. 

When you run so fast to get somewhere
You miss half the fun of getting there.
When you worry and hurry through your day,
It is like an unopened gift….
Thrown away.
Life is not a race.
Do take it slower
Hear the music
Before the song is over. 

Think About This…
It is time to slow down. Life is not a race.

My dear friend,

it’s been too long we haven’t seen each other,
too long I haven’t heard your news
been ages we haven’t played together
even my memory faded away through time
but I still remember your name
and I can assure you, I will tell people that I know you!

i still remember how we used to learn together
finding out what life suppose to be
together with other friends
we learned

perhaps time think differently now,
although many people saying farewell,
it’s not the end…
for we’ll see each other again later, somehow

my only best wishes to you is
Rest in Peace..

May the choirs of angels, come to greet you. May they speed you to paradise.

May the Lord enfold you in His mercy. May you find eternal life …

it’s just happened in less than a year

and yet there are so many things happened

you’ve changed me

i barely know myself now

i even feel like a stranger in my own world

after all of these

you left,

even pushed me to the ground

and shut your door

i don’t know,

are you my friend?

or just a rascal who likes to mess up one’s life

meeting you was a mistake

i shouldn’t have known you in the first place

silly isn’t it? just like your name

i don’t think you deserve to be called a friend

and one more thing,

if you think that you’re a man

i think you’re still a boy

and i hope what i’m doing

is what you want…

i went back to my playground,

but i forgot how to fly

although i know them,

but i forgot their names

although i know the tricks,

but i’ve lost my passion

i suppose that’s okay

life goes on..

but it’s not okay somehow

as i forgot how to have some fun…

hmm i still remember when you asked me "how do we know if we chose the right way?"
i kept saying there’s no right or wrong ways, the only way that you choose will be your responsibility, as you will find happiness and sadness in every ways…
i just received this passage..  and i guess this is relevant.. of what life supposed to be..  keep in mind

Makna Kehidupan

Tuhan yang Maha Baik memberi kita ikan,
tetapi kita harus mengail untuk mendapatkannya.
Demikian juga Jika kamu terus menunggu waktu yang tepat,
mungkin kamu tidak akan pernah mulai.
Mulailah sekarang…
mulailah di mana kamu berada sekarang dengan apa adanya.

Jangan pernah pikirkan kenapa kita memilih seseorang untuk dicintai,
tapi sadarilah bahwa cintalah yang memilih kita untuk mencintainya.

Perkawinan  memang memiliki  banyak kesusahan,
tetapi kehidupan lajang juga memiliki suka-duka.
Buka mata kamu lebar-lebar sebelum menikah,
dan biarkan mata kamu setengah terpejam sesudahnya.

Menikahi wanita atau pria karena kecantikannya atau ketampanannya sama seperti membeli rumah karena lapisan catnya.
Harta milik  yang paling berharga bagi seorang pria di dunia ini adalah hati seorang wanita.

Begitu juga Persahabatan, persahabatan adalah 1 jiwa dalam 2 raga
Persahabatan sejati layaknya kesehatan,
nilainya baru kita sadari setelah kita kehilangannya.

Seorang sahabat adalah yang dapat mendengarkan lagu didalam hatimu
dan akan menyanyikan kembali tatkala kau lupa akan bait-baitnya.
Sahabat adalah tangan Tuhan untuk menjaga kita.

Rasa hormat tidak selalu membawa kepada persahabatan,
tapi jangan pernah menyesal untuk bertemu dengan orang lain…
tapi menyesal-lah jika orang itu menyesal bertemu dengan kamu.

Bertemanlah dengan orang yang suka membela kebenaran.
Dialah hiasan dikala kamu senang dan perisai diwaktu kamu susah.
Namun kamu tidak akan pernah memiliki seorang teman, jika kamu mengharapkan seseorang tanpa kesalahan.

Karena semua manusia itu baik kalau kamu bisa melihat kebaikannya
dan menyenangkan kalau kamu bisa melihat keunikannya
tapi semua manusia itu akan buruk dan membosankan
kalau kamu tidak bisa melihat keduanya.

Begitu juga Kebijakan, Kebijakan itu seperti cairan,
kegunaannya terletak  pada penerapan yang benar,
orang pintar bisa gagal karena ia memikirkan terlalu banyak hal,
sedangkan orang bodoh sering kali berhasil dengan melakukan tindakan tepat.

Dan Kebijakan sejati tidak datang dari pikiran kita saja,
tetapi juga berdasarkan pada perasaan dan fakta.
Tak seorang pun sempurna.
Mereka yang mau belajar dari kesalahan adalah bijak.
Menyedihkan melihat orang berkeras bahwa mereka benar meskipun terbukti salah.

Apa yang berada di belakang kita dan apa yang berada di depan
kita adalah perkara kecil berbanding dengan apa yang berada di dalam kita.

Kamu tak bisa mengubah masa lalu….
tetapi dapat menghancurkan masa kini dengan mengkhawatirkan masa depan.
Bila Kamu mengisi hati kamu ….
dengan penyesalan untuk masa lalu dan kekhawatiran untuk masa depan,
Kamu tak memiliki hari ini untuk kamu syukuri.

Jika kamu berpikir tentang hari kemarin tanpa rasa penyesalan
dan hari esok tanpa rasa takut,
berarti kamu sudah berada dijalan yang benar menuju sukses.

little t.

I’m tired

the world move so fast

so fast that I can’t keep up

there are so many things to do

And not enough time to see the sunrise and sunset

I’m cold

my front and back is white

so is my right and left

they’re just a thick while wall

I’m torn

between pages of life

between humanities

between places

I’m lost

it’s not just two ways, but many

there are too many options

and yet I don’t know all of them

I want to close my eyes

but my time is not up yet

i can make it quicker

but I don’t think it’s the right way

Help me before I loose my mind

or has my mind been lost

and I just realize it now?

Funny, I don’t even know who I am

so, who am I?

a sweet girl waiting for a candy cane

or, a brat who seek for a rebellion

I think I’ve lost my identity

free floating out there~

and where is there?

no body knows

litte t.

Easter is a time when Christians remember Jesus who has died on a cross and rise again. This remembrance also included in part of the mass when we receive Holy Communion. However, this message is not just about communion as receiving body of Christ, but also being ‘in’ with Christ.

Communion is not just receiving the body of Christ, but also means being together in the community. Togetherness brings us into one church, to be united as Christians.

So we remember the Jesus being crucified on the cross to save us, but we need to ask, save us from what? Sin? What have we done so much for a son of God to be crucified?

We need to look deeper on what is the core of our sin, which started from our self, one self, ‘me’.  It is all about me, individualism and not being part of the community.

We asked forgiveness to God, but reconciliation is not just being ‘me and God’. It is more into being open again to the community and be back together as one Church.

Similarly, the Ten Commandments encourage us to love our God and our neighbours. These two are the foundation of being in one community of the Church, the foundation of our Christianity.

Hope this Easter can remind us to be back again as part of the community; to bow down from our self and serve one another as what Jesus taught us on Holy Thursday, to give ourselves entirely to God and His purpose shown by Jesus on Good Friday, and to rejoice in God’s glory, shown by the Resurrection for a new life.

xoxo

little. t

just because you grew here,

doesn’t mean this land is yours.

even your ancestors move here, somehow

you need to respect all people,

for all men created equal

without us,

your world will be isolated and not acknowledged

it’s not about networking

or taking advantages,

but about sharing our believes

stop racism,

it’s not the time anymore

for it is the past,

surely you don’t want to keep staying behind…

Today I went back to my playground

I saw my past friends, Sepia, Rouge, Bleu, Noir, Blanc and Grey

Sepia asked wherever I’ve been after all this time

I also been shown all the silhouettes when I was in my playground

surely it hasn’t change much, only the time and people that changed

Rouge then approached me,

my thought running wild of that glory time

now it’s just a thought,

memoir that keeps dancing in my wildest dream

Bleu teased me,

all that were matters don’t matter anymore now

soo all what matter now, won’t matter later on

none of that matter anymore, all thanks to time

Noir surprised me with so many questions

why did I leave without a word?

didn’t I miss the place I grew?

well, can’t blame anyone when I cant seen the people I loved anymore

time change, so are the people

Blanc asked quietly to me                                                    

what will you do now?

and I said,

I don’t know….

I can’t turn the time and go back to my past

just to see and feel my smile that in the past

smile without thought and worry

Grey settled me down,

time changed

people changed

so I must

Should I?