~카 구 라 요 ~

It’s never been easy for me

To find words to go along with a melody

But this time there’s actually something on my mind

So please forgive these few brief awkward lines

Since I met you, my whole life has changed

It’s not just my furniture you’ve rearranged

I was living in the past but somehow you’ve brought me back

And I haven’t felt like this since before Frankie said “relax”

And though I know

Based on my track record

I might not seem like the safest bet

All I’m asking you

Is don’t write me off just yet

For years I’ve been telling myself the same old story

That I’m happy to live off my so called former glories

But you’ve given me a reason to take another chance

Now I need you despite the fact that you’ve killed all my plants

And though I know

I’ve already blown more chances

Than anyone should ever get

All I’m asking you

Is don’t write me off just yet

Is don’t write me off just yet

(C) music anc lyric

wat a day`! full so unexpected plans… oh well.. at least the goal still the same, to life your life fully.

lots of notes to be learned, while many experiences that forcely you to learn about living and life. but i reckon time keep changing so quickly and yet so many stuffs happening, its a chaos!~!

it’s about a year or so, buttercup alive again`~!! and for sure.. she who learned so many bitter things last year, wouldn’t fall for the second time… (or would she~?) well, stay tune ~` many things happening to her, and yet she still doesn’t know what to do~~  big help`!! but i guess it’s only her decision that matter.

for sure there’s not right or wrong decision, only what ever you decide is the one that you want to be responsible to do till the end….  so i guess that there are many different path ways, or even alternatives that you can walk on this life, even though there are positive and negatives aspects, but i guess in the end they’re all worth to walk.

totally“!! well i reckon i just dreamd my own home bak then in indo`! miss them so dearly, while i doubt it would be the same. well, i might just recall wat i dreamd, that i wanted to see my oma, opa, and my past home, schools and friends, but realised when i got up… it was just a dream.

wish when i go back there… i wanna see my old friends.. whom we don’t realli talk much now… even though we have each other company "online" i reckon we had own busy-ness~ so yagh.. i even doubt wat will i do when i visit there.

ah those memories just a shillouete that drifting me pass… life for the future i guess, that you can’t turn back time. but sometimes, dreams are sweeter than reality. wat a dreamer~!!

well.. true if you said that it’s not fair spending stuffs that’s not worth it. but how else are you going to do if that’s the only thing that can cheerish u?

only if you know me better, i would try to forget all things and might find a new way out. it’s a mad world to live in but then my little voice keep screaming softly that i just want to taste that feeling. all the time i cant refuse it.

well, i can say that i’m not that into it anymore, but then i still missed it. one reason i can forget that place is that when i got the chance to talk and i think i found a person that i could talk to. but then people change, just like you said, that people changed. i reckon i just scared to move on that’s y i prefer to stay in my place than look upon the reality.

so what’s the price of fairness? i just want to feel being myself.